第46章 心灵的愈合

bsp;  Jim was exhausted as he settled into the chair.He had had little sleep.He began to reflect on the past hours，trying desperately to make some sense of it all.Why had Joshua，their firstborn，the child they had waited so long for，been taken so soon...he had barely begun his life...The question kept coming，and the pain in Jim‘s heart just enveloped him.He thought about the words spoken by the hospital chaplain.“We don’t fully understand what part we have in God‘s plan.Perhaps Joshua had already completed his mission on earth.”Those words didn’t ease the bitterness that was creeping in.

    吉姆坐在椅子上时，早已精疲力竭了。这几天，他始终没怎么睡觉。他开始回想起过去几十个小时里发生的事情，试图把整件事情想个明白。为什么他们在等待了那么久之后才得到的第一个儿子这么快就离开了他们……小约书亚的生活甚至还没有开始……问题一个接一个地出现，痛苦几乎将吉姆吞噬了。他突然想起了在医院时，牧师曾说过一段话：“我们并不明白自己在上帝的计划中扮演什么样的角色，也许约书亚已经完成了他在人间的使命。”可是，这些话根本无法减轻吉姆内心的痛苦——痛苦仍在一点点地吞噬着他。

    The hairdresser expressed her sympathy，and Jim found himself telling her all about the events of the last 30hours.Somehow it helped to tell the story.Maybe if he told it enough times，he would gain some understanding.

    As Jim mentioned the organ donations，he looked at his watch and remembered what was happening 60miles away...where he had said good-bye to his beloved Joshua a few short hours earlier.“They are transplanting one of his heart valves right now.”

    吉姆将自己的不幸遭遇告诉了理发师。他似乎觉得将这一切说出来能够使自己舒服点儿，或许多说几次，痛苦就会减少一些。

    当吉姆提到将约书亚的器官捐赠出去的事情时，他看了看手表，想着六十英里以外正在发生的事情……那里正是他与心爱的约书亚作别的地方。“现在，他们正在将他的心脏瓣膜取出来。”

    The hairdresser stopped and stood motionless.Finally she spoke，but her voice quivered and it was only a whisper.“You‘re not going to believe this...but about an hour ago the customer sitting in this chair wanted me to hurry so she could get to Children’s Hospital.She left here so full of joy...her prayers had been answered.Today her baby granddaughter is receiving a desperately needed transplant...a heart valve.”

    Jim‘s healing began.

    理发师听了他的话立即停了下来，站在那里一动不动。过了好久，她才再次开口了，她用一种颤抖着的、近乎耳语的声音说：“这听上去也许使人有些难以置信……不过，就在一个小时以前，同样坐在这把椅子上的顾客希望我能够替她快点剪，因为她急着要去儿童医院。她离开的时候满心欢喜……她对我说，她的祈祷应验了。今天，她那个还在襁褓中的孙女要接受一个迫在眉睫的手术……移植一片心脏瓣膜。”

    吉姆心灵上的创伤开始渐渐愈合了。（未完待续）